This sort of freedom is not chaos nor anarchy/ Ova vrsta slobode nije ni kaos ni anarhija

'My desire was to give my audiences my own sense of something wild and unrestricted that ran like water in the mountains, or clouds changing shape in a gale, or the continually dissolving and transforming images of a dream. This sort of freedom is not chaos nor anarchy. On the contrary, it is a result of painstaking design, and in this work I have given more conscious attention to form and construction than I have in any work before. Freedom is not achieved simply by working freely.'  from Author Foreword to Camino Real
                     
It came to me as a surprise that people used to (and maybe still do) walk out of this play. Tennessee Williams has written many beautiful plays but I have to admit this one has a special meaning for me. Tastes are not to be debated, they say? But what is there to debate if not our tastes? By that I mean that there is nothing wrong in discussing what we like and what we don't...However, this post will not turn into a discussion of the book. It is just that ....Tonight I'm rereading it...and rereading a book is somewhat like catching up with your old friend, isn't it? A reason for celebration even?

What particularly captured my attention tonight was what Tennessee said about the process of creation. 'Freedom is not achieved simply by working freely.' We are often not aware of how much effort goes into creating something. I would even go so far as to say that there is a great mystery in the process of creation...and perhaps it shouldn't be any other way around.

"Moja želja bila je dati mojoj publici moj vlastiti osjećaj nečega divljeg i neobuzdanog, nečega što teče kao rijeka u planinama ili  kao što su oblaci što mijenjaju oblik pred naletom snažnog vjetra ili kao neprestalno promjenjive i transformirajuće slike sna. Ova vrsta slobode nije ni kaos ni anarhija. Naprotiv, to je rezultat jako pažljivog osmišljavanja, i u ovom djelu ja sam uložio puno više pozornosti na formu i konstrukciju nego u ikojem djelu prije. Sloboda nije ostvariva samo time što radimo na slobodan način. " Iz Autorovog predgovora Camino Realu

Iznenadilo me čuti da su ljudi izlazili (a možda) još izlaze s ove predstave. Tenessee Williams je napisao brojne prekrasne drame, ali ova moram priznati ima posebno značenje za mene. Kažu da se o ukusima ne raspravlja? Ali o čemu da raspravljamo ako ne o našim ukusima? Time mislim da nema ništa lošeg u tome da raspravljamo o onome što nam se sviđa i što nam se ne sviđa. Ipak, ovaj se post neće pretvoriti u raspravu o knjizi. Radi se o tome da je večeras ponovo čitam, a ponovno čitanje knjige je kao susret sa starim prijateljem, zar ne? Možda čak i razlog za slavlje?

Ono što mi je posebno privuklo pozornost večeras je što je Tennessee rekao o procesu stvaranja. "Sloboda nije ostvariva samo time što radimo na slobodan način."  Često nismo svjesni koliko truda ide u stvaranje nečega. Čak bi rekla da je samom procesu stvaranja pristuan misterij...i možda tako i treba biti.

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